25 Jul 2022
Overview
  • During lockdown, I daydreamed of being able to travel overseas or even just serving customers at the pub. But why have I found myself now daydreaming of... dare I say it... lockdown?

I know I know, no one in their right minds should be even muttering the words "I want another lockdown". Just admitting this makes me feel guilty. I mean, we all learned from Jumanji to be careful what you wish for.

Locky-d made me feel like a fork in a world of soup. In the beginning, I daydreamed of being able to travel overseas or reclaiming my title of Patron Saint of Partying. Later down the track, my daydreams were as mundane as serving customers at the pub or being able to shake a mates hand without wondering, "have they given me the Big C?". 

I, like everyone else, just wanted my everyday life back. 

So when freedom was handed to me and I felt more like a spoon than a fork, I went ugh... well, nuts. See, I felt robbed and cheated of my youth and that bitterness fueled a jampacked schedule. I booked flights I couldn't afford, worked three jobs that I didn't have time for, caught up with mates even though I was absolutely buggered... I joined a footy club and an orchestra. I volunteered once a week. I planned camping trips and festivals with my mates.

Long story short, I burnt myself out! I pressured myself to stay busy 24/7 because, who knows when I'd have my time stolen from me again?!

Then I found myself daydreaming of... god forbid... lockdown. 

In this weird way, locky-d was a reset of sorts. Away from all the noise outside and abundant with time, I was able to focus on new habits like yoga and jogging. I started surfing and learning French. I had more time to write and read. For all the sadness and boredom born out of the pandemic, I was able to have time to finally breathe.

And that's what I was craving. Time to breathe. Balance is the golden word here. I dropped a few shifts to focus on uni. I happily ditched parties to stay inside and read a good book. I fell into habits again and worked them around my daily schedule. 

Lockdown taught us how precious time is. Sure, you want to be living life to the fullest, travelling the world, boogieing at festivals and working hard to pay for both. But you also need to set aside time for you 🥰